some time ago, I created UT99.org, because i just (still) LOVE Unreal Tournament. I wanted to found a place for you, where you can discuss, share knowledge, publish your creations (maps, mods, etc) and find many good UT-related files, which are spread over the internet.
Over time, the forum were filling with users and posts, and I decided to extend the community. I installed a UT-Server, I planned (and developed) a website which should contain a knowledge-base, a better arranged download-section, a new forum and a server tracker page.
It was over a year ago. I didnt ever finish the website. I didnt ever finish the server-setup.
I started being inactive.
I had (and still have) a staff-team by my side, which is full of nice, helpful and motivated people, who believes in UT99.org. I left them alone in this community.
Of course there were several reasons, why i wasnt so active anymore. But I know I didnt gave my best. I still could have been active here, although I had some problems in real life. I just had no motivation anymore. The problem was, I did fail in organizing new team-structures. As i said: I just left my team alone.
This year, a partner of mine did talk to me. He couldnt understand why I just disappeared from that great place, which I have founded. He (and most of you I guess) were sad about that, what i did do (or better to say: what I DIDNT do). So I tried a new start. I have collected feedback and many wishes, and wanted to work on the community again. A news-page, a UT-wiki, a download-page, a page for map-reviews and some more things were planned. My partner wanted to help me with setting up the software / developing the components, when he finds time. He started with it, but sadly for several reasons (which are completely understandable), he couldnt work on it anymore. I was demotivated again. After a few weeks, the project to refresh UT99.org was freezed again...
I promised things to the community, and I gave you nothing. I am Admin of this community, and i was inactive without giving the team information what to do.
Dear Creavion, dear Feralidragon, dear GenMoKai, dear Alex,
I am awfully sorry. I dont know what to say... it was just completely wrong, what I did do with the community and what I did do with you. I didnt realize, how shitty it was for you as the staff-team, to be here without the admin and any instructions.
After all, I am very glad to see this place is still alive.
But the question ist: What now?
I doubt I will ever finish everything I have started. I doubt I can ever realize all your (partly really great) suggestions. I am really sorry for that. So here is my suggestion: What is the most important feature for you missing here? What is mandatory for this community? What is the most needed feature to make this place a bit better? I will TRY to realize this one wish.
Of course, many people will laugh now: "Hahaha sure... he promised us updates so many times, and now we should believe him?" Well as I said... I will "try" it. As you have already experienced, there is just no reason to believe me. So this all may sound like a bad joke. But working on one (important) wish increases the chance to finish it. I am serious. I already feel very bad about the whole situation. I dont want to fail again. If I can manage to release the first suggestion, there may be a chance to work on a second.
Beside this suggestion to you, I will talk with the staff-team in the intern forum about the future of the organization of UT99.org
PS: Thank you for your birthday greetings!
Of course i have read them 3 days ago. But then I started to write this text before I would write any other things.
PPS: Throwing tomatoes in this thread is allowed.
PPPS: Oh ehm... just forgot that: Happy new year!