Quick follow up. I've begun the transfer of literally everything to Carbon. He and I have spoken at great length away from the online forums and developed a good friendship. He's proven to be a great U-archivist and I trust his decisions. I just don't want my stuff to ever get lost or be unavailable. My personal work is only a small part of what I'm sending him. In truth if you made a mod and it's interesting or unique then I've decompiled it and I just sent him the source code
On a personal update I'm getting a couple of emails so let me explain better. As far as I know the cancer isn't 'back'. It's common for later stage cancer patients to get a syndrome called cachexia. You can google it for more in depth explanation but the TL/DR of it is that it's a muscle wasting syndrome. I look completely bizarre because of this thing. I keep the pockets of fat that I have but my muscle mass has withered to almost nothing SPAM LINK REMOVED
Each pound I lose comes directly from my muscle tissue and that's why it's so hard to battle. Less muscle=less energy so you have to rest more which means you build less muscle back. It's a nasty cycle. I'm almost a skin sack of bones lol. If you guys want I'll take a body shot and you can really see it in my shoulders and arms.
Anyway, the only treatment is full-load exercise. I've had to start training like it's a second job. Fuck. This. Shit. Exercising is hard (whine whine)... I miss being fat and lazy.
If I don't die I might be back in the fall. If I do die I'll let you know. If I have to work out like this forever then I might die on purpose
Carbon has my full blessing to do anything he wants with anything I sent him. As always if it's my work anyone can use it however you want. Nothing I ever did was great but you might find it useful or worth improving. Now, excuse me please, I need to get that morning run in. Yay motivation!
Get it? The T-rex represents death and it's chasing me while I run screaming...Too subtle?